Tuesday, August 28, 2007

hakka atau haka



Hakka to ka , haka to ka
onaji da you
suzushii, tsumetai
kedo, chiagu koto ga aru
hakka is full of joy and happiness , while another is sadness and loneliness

i get these 2 words for my new vocab : hakka means peppermint while haka means graveyard.
from 2 things very different : Hakka candy which very wonderful (even flirty) love song and Hotaru no Haka, dark and touching story about brotherhood.

futari no koto sugoi yo.

this is hakka candy:
-credit goes to Mognet.com

shizuka ni michite kuru
nami no tsuzureori
nan do mo nakaseta ne
gomen

amedama motte nai ka na?
kore ga saigo na no
shiroi ha shita misete
warau

kimi shika you're the one
mienai for love and one
honto da yo
hakka no nioi no unmei no hito sa
boku no me wa
kimi shika utsuranai

goran yo ano hikaru hoshi
hokkyokusei da yo
yoko ni wa mikazuki no
kobune

kokoro no keisanki
sonna mono nai wa
mujaki ni iikitta
kimi

i found my way

kawaii you're the one
kuseshite for love and one
shin ga aru
mirai wo azukeru kachi no aru hito sa
uso ja nai
kimi shika utsuranai

suzushii umikaze ni
kono mama dakarete

kimi dake you're the one
for love and one
kimi dake ga boku ga erabu hito
tatsumaki mitai na jidai ni ikite mo
kimi to nara
jouzu ni yareru sa

kimi shika you're the one
mienai for love and one
honto da yo
hakka no nioi no unmei no hito sa
boku no me wa
kimi shika utsuranai
kimi shika utsuranai


(indonesian said "gombal ni ye..." but i'd like to share with u anyway :) )

regards,

-kirara-

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Hakka candy

.....kimi shika, mienai
hontou da yo
hakka no , nioi mo .....

such a lie, desshou ?
demo, nanka, yuraimashikatta
jitsu wa, kyou oyaji no koto omoidashita
nanka, naite jya, atashi wa

Friday, August 03, 2007

harusnya di POST tgl 21 juli

this was really me :

My blog

07 nen, shichigatsu, 21nichi

-------L O S T-----------

Today was the graduation day of my university. It was supposed to commemorize the graduation for the university student , and actually it was for the generation of mine. And actually I’m not on it. For some particular reasons I couldn’t attended it, even I just congratulated my friends who’s graduate this time by mail. Hidoi ne?! Demo, sou ga nai jya. I can’t help myself for being envying them too much.

I just kept my self patient with all the stuff they said ‘bout their graduation. It’s not just about envying them, or maybe it was an accumulation of my loneliness for being leaved by them. Euhmmm, iya da yo. I don’t think so.

I was think about my whole life since I knew how to think ‘bout my self ‘till almost 22 years of mine. I was releaved that I got such fortune to be rised In a peacefull family without any serious problem which shake the balance of my childhood life. Then my father leaved when I was 11. It was the only thing shifted my paradigm of life. Since I was very young at that time I don’t even realized that those things might be have some influences in the present time.

Maybe I don’t think too much about being a daughter of single parent family that time. Since I was young my mom always teach and condition us , her daughters felt brave and did all the things by ourselves. I proud for having such wonderfull and strong woman like that as my Mom. (Itsumo arigatou, Kaasan !). Those things flowed as I grew and become adult. I didn’t realize that there’s something lost in my life, not like other person who didn’t lost a part of their life. I didn’t realize a single thing that made significant shifting in my perception of life. Then, when I was lost in the jungle of confusions to decide what should I do for my future.

It was a while when I realize, What should I do for my whole future? What should I make to plan for my next step? When I look around me, my jaw was down. I Do Not Know About Those Things YET. It was totally failure for my self that time. Few days ago, I was felt down and always feel turn down by all things happened to me.

Then, that answer came to me. It was a chat with my friend. My highschool life friend ‘though he wasn’t my highschool friend. I shared my problem that time , and tremendously he can describe my whole confusions. Sugoi na???? Eventhough it was very simple to guess, but those seemed very incredible that time. Life tremendously flow without our selfishness to make it go with our own plan. “NARIYUKI” (go with the flow). Maybe that’s the exact word to express that mysterious answer. Just that simple thing made me realize that I was wrong to put my attention to plan my future. Life isn’t a thing to be think of. Just let it flow and let yourself realize a think to be thinked of when you find a single wonderfull thing in it.

Then, 2nd answer came too. The song flow and obviously touch my heart without I knew the whole lyrics meaning. Just caught up some words in it “ number 1 ni naranakute mou ii” which means there’s no need to be always be No. 1. Lately I found the title, Sekai ni Hitotsu no Hana. That’s sang by an important person. A person which was very close to my heart but pretty far from my existence.

There's no need to be No. 1
you've always been a very special only one.

I saw many kinds of flowers lined up in front of the flowershop.
everyone has their favorite kinds but all of them are pretty.
Without competing to see which was the best among them,
they were standing straight up proudly inside the bucket.
So why then do we humans have to compare ourselves to one another?
Eventhough each and every person is different,
why do we want to be number one?
Yes we are each..

a flower unlike any other in the world
and each and everyone of us carries a different seed
We should focus all our efforts on trying to make that flower bloom

I was crying in my heart

It was so deep!

I can’t help to make myself down for a while to recognize that I was perfectly wrong yesterday. I want to keep falling, but I know I still could stand to make my self move forward. Nothings else to be think of. Nariyuki, sou da yo ! Tsuyoku naru. Mae ni susume. (be strong, move forward).

-------Tsuzuku----

pidato nya mr. steve jobs (keren!)

just 1 comment : COOOOOL!

- the speech of Steve Jobs in Stanford Univ Graduation-
credits to forum kabinetnolpatnollima

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.